The ups and the downs

It's been a really emotional week, not to mention a bit confusing!
Hubby got the results for his semen analysis. Thankfully for him, they came back absolutely fine. I'm really pleased for him as I knew how much it was worrying him, but at the same time it was very upsetting for me as this means that the chances are the problem is going to be something to do with me.
I have cried a lot. However happy I am for him, I'm just as upset for me! Totally irrational and probably a bit selfish, I know, but I really can't help it!
I just feel so confused about it all. Now we've got his results I really want mine done. Until I've got answers I'm going to continue to feel confused.
we still haven't heard from the clinic about our consultation. Not sure how long it'll take, but I'm getting sick of waiting as we have already been through this all once, to be told that we'd have to go right back to the beginning! Aaargh!