The ups and the downs

It's been a really emotional week, not to mention a bit confusing!
Hubby got the results for his semen analysis. Thankfully for him, they came back absolutely fine. I'm really pleased for him as I knew how much it was worrying him, but at the same time it was very upsetting for me as this means that the chances are the problem is going to be something to do with me.
I have cried a lot. However happy I am for him, I'm just as upset for me! Totally irrational and probably a bit selfish, I know, but I really can't help it!
I just feel so confused about it all. Now we've got his results I really want mine done. Until I've got answers I'm going to continue to feel confused.
we still haven't heard from the clinic about our consultation. Not sure how long it'll take, but I'm getting sick of waiting as we have already been through this all once, to be told that we'd have to go right back to the beginning! Aaargh!

Now we're getting somewhere...I think!

Had the appointment with the GP on Saturday and finally feel like we might just be getting somewhere!
He explained all about how the new referal system works, set me up for the next lot of blood test (on Wednesday) and sorted out Hubby's sample (which he gets to do at home now!).
As soon as my blood tests are done he is going to get the new referal sent off. He has also agreed to send us to a more local hospital, so now we won't have to go to London, which is alot more convenient. He has said that he will mention in the letter that we have already been refered once and have had a consultation at another clinic, so hopefully we can get seen a little bit quicker. Don't really want to have to go through the long wait again just to get a consultation.

On a worse note, one of the girls I work with decided it was a good idea to discuss the referal and treatment in all it's glory infront of our customers at work! After telling her about it all in confidence, and saying I didn't want anyone else to know about it, it was hard enough to handle when she told them all, but bringing it up infront of the customers was just plain rude!!! At least I now know who I can't trust!