It just gets harder!

This just gets harder by the day.
We have still got no further with anything. After weeks of trying to get through to the clinic to arrange our next appointment for the first scans & samples, I find out that they have closed down. Didn't even bother to let us know. I only found out through an article in the local paper.
We tried to contact one of the other local clinics, but they know nothing about what is happening with all the patients that have been left behind.
I am starting to feel like giving up as we are getting nowhere.
The emotions are getting worse too. I don't know if I'm coming or going half the time. It's amazing that one thing can take over your life so much. Hopefully once we start to get somewhere it might all get a little easier. I'm told that all these feelings are quite normal, but it doesn't feel very normal to me. I just want to feel happy again.